Where are you?

It's been 16 years.
Actually it's been more like 21 years since you were gone.

Would life be any different if you were still here? Better or worse?

Then, I was too young to tell what's gonna change.
Now, I am old enough to feel the vacancy that will never be filled

Where's that figure? Where is that hand?

Question Mark

I ask: ???????
You reply: !!!!!!!

I then ask: ????????????
You then answer: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I keep asking: ????????
You keep answering: !!!!!!!!!!

In the end, we both:
...............................................................................

emotionally drained

Tears are about to flood
Heart is pumping hard
Muscle tone keeps on raising up
Zillions of things flash thru my brain
Yet no expression on my face

why bother

I've cried before
My heart's been hurt not too long ago
My body's been weakened also
And my brain has been close to explode

When I think of death, I see peace
While I'm in darkness, I feel soothed
Spreading depression, emotionally drained

Please don't leave me a stinky bag of human skin
Let ash to ash, dust to dust

numb

over and over and over again
repeat after repeat after repeat
going on and on and on
circling round and round and round

Earth circle around the sun like this
Moon circle around the earth like this
I circle around you like this
you circle around me like this

over and over and over again
repeat after repeat after repeat
going on and on and on
circling round and round and round

I preach to you over and over again
You repeat the argue after argue after argue
Life is going on and on and on
Blood is still circling round and round and round

Finally it gets worn
Finally it get torn
Finally it gets numb

Yet, here it goes

over and over and over again
repeat after repeat after repeat
going on and on and on
circling round and round and round

lonely soul

Feeling so small.
Small enough to fit in a tiny test tube.
Small enough to fly with the dust which was swirled way up in the sky.
Small enough like a lonely soul dangling in the wind

When you feel lonely, you shrink.

As I was waiting for R train.
I saw those mice seem to lead a more meaningful life than I do.
They are not lonely.

Biggest city, smallest being
Alive but not existing
Feel but no sensation

Days like this
Nights like this
Life like this

亂

有時候, 迷惑著. 愛到底是一個信念, 是一個承諾. 還是像吃喝拉撒睡一樣的一種習慣?
也有時候, 氣餒了. 所有的堅持, 所有的樂觀, 就是無法解開別人心中情緒的死結.
這個別人, 我的最愛.

熱浪侵襲紐約, 颱風橫掃台灣.
兩顆心, 承受著前所未有的風暴.

尋找一種引力, 能將所有的不平衡, 不協調, 不安定, 拉到一種動態平衡.
或許來點DHPG, 讓所有神經細胞synchronizedly discharge.
變成節奏明快的tango.

思念

化我的思念, 为白云片片
飘过平原, 飘过高山
飘到你的头顶窗前
默默的投给你我那爱的诗篇
一千遍一万遍

化我的思念, 为蓝星点点
闪在黑夜, 闪在凌晨
闪在你的眉睫梦境
轻轻的弹给你我那爱的琴键,
一千遍一万遍

化我的思念, 為山花朵朵,
开满山谷, 开满丘陵
开满你的发鬓庭园
暗暗地寄给你我那爱的书简
一千遍一万遍