creeping

"yeah, this will be great!"
"Oh, wait. that might make it as well."
"Hmm. actually this is really what I want in the long run."

So where are we now?

So many things are flashing across my mind.
My heart is creeping up here or toward there.
Whishful thinking or cold hard reality?

One thing for sure, big "4" and "0" are right at the corner.
Where am I creeping to?