Not quite. My dad died 22 years ago due to a homicide while trying to intervene an argument between a fucking bastard and his in-laws in west San Jose. My mom was standing right beside him and witnessed eveything. Then I was just a sophomore struggling in the very first relationship and my dad had already been away for more than 5 yers.
I don't know if that's one of the reasons that I have been staying in New York for so long. What do I want to prove? And to whom? Just so I can establish myself in US with a beautiful wife? Is this so called an "American dream"? Or somehow subconsciously, I want to complete a full circle that my dad was unable to do?
Questions: What's the circle? How big is it? When enough will be actually enough?Is it time to pack and move back to my home country? What kind of life will I want to lead if I go back? Not city life, I'd say.
If my dad were still alive, he would've been 76 years old. Would he have retired and moved back to Taiwan also? Is that what he planned to do but never was able to accomplish.
What am I still waiting for?
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